hello forgottern friend. i see a lot has changed since i've been here. you can actually change your font n stuff without having premium. fun stuff.

i think i miss xanga. its fun reading about peoples lives. and mind sets. as opposed to reading comments and looking at pictures of people.

i really need to get my eyes checked. i'm getting blinder. thats bad.

guard is good. learning winter guard drill next week. whoohoo. maan im excited. i was looking forward to this since the end of last year. come to think of it. that doesnt seem to long ago. is it just me or has this year been going by with a quickness? that could be a good and bad thing. actually. it is. but i feel no need to elaborate. school. its school. man. junior year. and im procrastinating like crazy. this years suppossed to be the most important n stuff. i've just been saying "oh well" to everything. and thats bad. i think i've started to change that. after the conclusions that i've come to. dont feel the need to elaborate on that either.

xanga reminds me of middle school. haha oh drama. thats all middle school reminds me of. and the controversies that people started with people writing ambiguous things in their blogs and people thinking they were talking about them. but who am i to talk. i write ambiguously in my blogs all the time. who knows. maybe i'm talking about you.

doubt it. i usually talk nonsense. just gives me an excuse to get away from my homework for a while. it was a miracle today. i actually got home right after school. ate. and then did homework. all of this... before it got dark. weird. and then and then!! i studied at starbucks with the best friends. weird. am i actually beginning to care about school again? i think that would be good. healthy.

melissa says "occasionally is healthy. not a lifestyle" and thats smart. and you have no idea what im talking about. and i love it.

yeah yeah i blabber. but hey. isnt that what a blog is suppossed to be? and since i havent written in a while its nice to just pour out this nonsense. but too bad. because i have priorities. and i think finishing this chem lab is more important than lengthening this entry. thus, i must say adieu. dont drink coffee. it stunts your growth.

so i've abandoned this xanga. and i feel bad. its neglected. and no. i have not moved on to the whole myspace scene because i dont even have time for that. down time is incredibly rare now.

and this stupid lawnmower in the morning is killing my sleep. ugggh fuck the lawn. cant it just grow on its own. damn.

so i had this dream last night. that someone was attacking me. and i tried to use avada kedavra and sectumsempra on him. but it didnt work. and then i died. with a "flash of green light". and yes. its was really weird.

i feel like being random today. or maybe i'll ACTUALLY be productive and do hw. ehh whatever. i play everything by ear nowadays. and i cant effing wait til i get my liscence. oh maan meagans taking her test soon. good luck =) oh man. im scared for mine. i havent reaaally been practicing. there hasnt been any TIME for that.

so we're like. actually learning some field work. fuckk dude. our first football game is in two weeks. and its the one against oceanside. im effing scared. whatever dude. AHHHH

to the mall today? or not. i dunno. well whatever i do i have to decide now. i'll flip a coin. anywaaaaay. i've been losing all track of time lately. and im hungry. and bye.

you know... this week has been friicken deja vu like.. too many damn times!! so like... i always have like these ignorant little assuptions after i analyze a situation for too long and let my mind wander.. and right when im about to just GIVE UP, i find something that tooootally contradicts my thoughts and lifts my spirits =). that makes me happy. i'm happy. i think. well i guess i should knock on wood and hope that this feeling doesnt go away. and hopefully it stays until the end of the year. i need it. you know what else i need? i need my friends. we need to have that movie night. =/ with carne asada fries on top.

sooo. prom's tomorrow. thats come crazy shit. haha i hope i dont get too extremely dark tomorrow at the guard/band thinger. dannngit.

i love lynn. she takes care of me. and my nails. =) i wont cheat on her ever. haha stupid other lady. mutilating my friicken hands. and trying to jip me for more money. rawrrrr.

i HATE school shit. so tell me why its like the last four weeks and they're PILING all of this unnecessary SHIT on us. i SWEAR they're like doing this on purpose to make our last days completely MISERABLE.

i want a pet. definately dont want luna. she scares me. stupid perverted cat. watching me pee. with her HUGE eyes. making noises. and rubbing against my leg. stupid cat.

i need to go sleep. i'm deprived. ciao bella.

haha. tricking your brain. it works. seriously. last night i thought to myself... im soo not going to finish this paper. it would be so cool if i didnt have to go to school tomorrow. what if i was sick? muahaha then i wouldnt have to. and then all of a sudden... there goes my stomach. and then my head. and then my throat. rawwr.. toe-tally redefines "you can do whatever you put you're mind to." blahblah. but hey i got another two days to finish this blasted paper.

sooo.. i have concluded that my backyard is DEFINATELY not the best practice area. it was really good practice weather just a moment ago. and soo here i come with the "great" idea of seeing how high i could toss. well.. it was a tad bit feathery so i TRIED to deal. too bad my sabre RAINBOWED,  made a clinking noise on the metal bars, and almost went over the stupid fence. i swear.. if that went over i would have died. because i was not about to go run down that that place thing with the strange animals. but if i would have caught that sucker it would have been a pretty nice seven. or at least i think it was. haha. seven just sounds like a good number. anywhooo... then on to my rifle. soooo i was tossing fine until all of a sudden then feather picks up from behind and sends it forward like ten HUNDRED feet. and it missed the balcony by a hair. omgaaash that was soooo mother effing scary. if it went up there and broke some wood... ooo i would have been in deeep doodoo. buuuut it didnt. so =)

well i must go prepare for dance. hah. can you believe im actually going.. i actually have a ride. and im not preoccupied with competition stress and readjusting to school life.. seeing as that i missed it today. but hey at least im ALMOST caught up with homework. hah. yeh right. like i'll ever be. blah. what a depressing life i lead. sayonara.

ooo i shall be changing sites soon. www.xanga.com/chriiiisellelala i think thats right... it looks right. well when i have the time i'll switch. until then folks...

incredibly i have not touched this in quite a loooong time. i haven't exactly found the time to sit and type a blog-worthy entry in a long while and i dont think i have mucho to say. and plus.. its 12 in the morning and im about to fall over with sleep. buuut i felt bad for this neglected site. not like anyone looks at it anymore. but hey at least i acknowledged it. lets see... at world champs we got 20th out of 128 scholastic a guards in the universe. and medaled with a silver in semis for wgasc champs and fifth overall. i think. haha but you'd only understand if you were a guard head. caren you're right.. i am a guard nerd. well you're a band geek so we're even. muahah.

AP EXAMS ARE COMING!!! omgaaash. ok so this month i'm going to seriously start working. my priorities need to get back straight just until after may 6th. i think thats the date. but who cares. all i know is that its soon. and im tired. and i have a research paper due on monday. and i just started my research. maybe i should stop bsing all of my essays. cuz then when the final draft comes along i have a billlllion things piled up. ahhhhh procrastination. only two more months of this... well. just until another break. and then.... we're juniors!! ewwww... thats weird. maybe i just want time to slow down after ap exams. yes. that would be nice.

lately ive been having the most vivid dreams... its really weird. like i'll wake up and not remember what happened the other day. like it'll come back after a while because my mind stays in dream-mode. tooooo many random thoughts. ooo speaking of. i can get my permit soon. well actually i could have gotten it on the 12th but my lazy self haaad to wait. ughh. i have to make an appointment soon. dont let me forget.

so my asb interview is this tuesday. ahhh im scared dude. it would be sooo cool if i make elections but i think it'd be okay if i didnt. i wouldnt be terribly disappointed cuz then i could just go for mercury leader. and plus im only going to be a junior next year. but what if i dont make that either? then i'd be forced to take another year of french with mrs. brown... >=/ rawr.. no way. must not let that happen. maybe i'll take it at southwestern with alissa. hmm. if only i could drive already. gaash im such in a hurry to get my liscence. =/

bladda bladda i feel out of shape. no guard rehearsals in such a loong time. melissa we WILL go to the gym. hah. oo then you can DRIVE us there. fun. ooo i feel like running in the morning tomorrow. hah yeh right. like i'll wake up early enough. maybe i'll go in the afternoon. after i wake up at 12 =) its only because i have FREE weekends now!! weird.. no curlers impeding a goodnights sleep. and no early call time. niice...

you know.. its times like these when i wish i were stupid. then i wouldnt have to be stressing out over stupid ap exams. and then i would have the ability to synthesize information. and then i would be happy in my own little gummy bear world. but no... my stupid self has to analyze everything. and i have to take stupid ap classes to get into a good college. because colleges just have to matter so much. and thus it still makes me stupid. so either way i'll be stupid. im screwed for life.

wow this is turning out to be a longer babble than i thought. i need a new computer. this one is annoying. it seems with whatever computer i have, something always has to go wrong. with people trying to help and fix it. but it always ends up confused. im cursed. yes thats all. i think ate cha needs a laptop. maybe when she gets one it'll be like a buy one get one free deal eh? haha maaaan i hate disposable cameras. cuz then you have to scan the pictures. and my scanner is confused too. word of advice: dont take your computer for granted. you'll appreciate it more if you've ever experienced mine. ugh. its actually depressing. but whateverr i can deal.

ok i is officially bored of this. i think i'll go read old letters or something to amuse myself. i dont think im sleepy anymore. maybe my euro or bio study books will do the trick. scratch that.. im SURE they will. adios to the cool people who actually have the time and patience to read this. or who simply have no life so must find some excitement in reading about my boring one i lead. no offense to those who answered yes to the latter. bonne nuit mes amis. je t'aime. not.